I spent last Saturday with my daughter and her best friend from her rehab house. They were all smiles.. I think we sang to my "old school" CD's til we were hoarse and we laughed til my sides hurt.
She only had an 8 hour pass. Since there is not a lot to do in the little town they are in.. we headed to Cleveland. How much can you cram into 8 hours?? Let me tell you.. you can cram a lot and spend a lot!
We visited old neighbors, friends, family, had lunch, shopped. Let me add, she asked for nothing.. shopping was my thing. Is this real? Is this my daughter??
She said she has a few more things to do before she can move to the next phase. One them being getting her temps. This will be the 4th time for that. I would never allow a known drug user on the road on my watch. I said.. well let's get that done today. She said no Mom. They are setting small goals like this for me to become an adult. I have to do this by myself. I have to make it happen. I am like.. I can deal with this!
I feel like we all 3 were glowing, like people wanted what we have. Never in my life have I felt that. Their happiness, laughter was contagious.
It was a long day for me.. 2 hours to her house, 1 hour to Cleveland, 1 hour back to her house and another 2 hours home. Her pass was from 1pm to 9pm. I didnt' get home until after 11pm.. I am old.. I was tired.. but it was a happy tired. It wasn't a ton of bricks on my shoulders tired.
I needed that!! Well we all did.
The girls were ... so grateful... so thankful.. over and over... I am pinching her.. asking are you for real?? Is this my daughter? is this a friend of hers?? They would laugh and call me by nick name.. Yes, kelbell.. it's all real and sincere.
For now I will take it.