tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2460448667975629711.post6692795716700615547..comments2023-06-15T06:35:57.251-07:00Comments on The Delicate BALANCE: It started with a request for a letter from me to herkellyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00270278485457022184noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2460448667975629711.post-18325281012296138552010-06-28T08:54:56.280-07:002010-06-28T08:54:56.280-07:00Thanks Peggy!
You brought up some points I never t...Thanks Peggy!<br />You brought up some points I never thought of.. as I am too close to the situation.<br />When describing my brother with other family, it's like describing Emily. Never grew up. Never reached that maturity.. feels invinsible. Life should be a party..have fun man attitude. <br />There is that question.. what's rock bottom? knocking on deaths door obviously is not the bottom for him. His kidneys shut down, bowels, he was knocking for sure. <br />I actually begged the Cleveland Clinic to take me as living donor. They said he was too far gone and the Hep C would eat my partial. I can tell you.. if it had worked.. I would be.. so mad... rage probably. I know I can only control my reation... but I have no words left to say.. maybe silence means more this time??<br />Hugs<br />Kellykellyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00270278485457022184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2460448667975629711.post-43955483159890702872010-06-27T23:59:08.539-07:002010-06-27T23:59:08.539-07:00This post broke my heart. Not only are you dealin...This post broke my heart. Not only are you dealing with Emily, but with your brother as well. You're right - active addiction defies all common sense and rational thinking. The irony of your brother's behavior, as a recent liver transplant, is startling. It's like seeing someone on oxygen, light up a cigarette. YOU, Kelly, are right on, and in balance. Just do what you need to do to keep yourself safe and sane. It's just so painful and difficult to let things go that you have no control over. Hopefully, your brother will find serenity one day. Do you think that he lacks confidence as a parent, and thinks the only way he can relate to his son is through alcohol? That he may subconsciously think that alcohol provides some kind of connection to his son, that he so desperately wants and is afraid to lose? Or that he doesn't know of any other way to relate to his son? I ask these questions because your brother's desperation to connect with his son goes hand in hand with his addiction, powerful forces that you cannot have any kind of significant impact on. <br /> Thinking of you, and understanding your feelings of frustration and helplessness. PeggyAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com